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What would you feel, when you receive a phone call from your mother, who's in hysterics, telling you in rasped breaths that your sister, which was healthy and happy just two days before you last met her is now in fact, dead?

Shock and denial were what i initially felt.  "Bonda cakap betul betul, jangan main main!"  "Betul long, angah dah takde!" Immediately after that, i felt as if i was suffocating. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't comprehend the news. Tak mungkin agun dah takde.  She's my sister, it's impossible.
Selalunya kalau balik, mesti semua tunggu kaklong balik. But who knew there would come a day where I had to come back home to my sister's death. Selama ni baca tentang kematian, aku fikir if it was to happen to me, aku akan kuat. Tetapi ya Allah, engkau sahaja tahu apa yang aku rasa ketika itu. Naik komuter alone, crying all the way from Nilai to Seremban, and hailed a taxi straight to the hospital to be met with the image of my mothe…
I thought as we are getting older, we could fully understand our responsibilities as a manusia generally and a Muslim, specifically. 

I have One Big problem

“Dah solat?” I asked..

“Belum….. kita penat. Nak tidur dah ni.”What she replied to.

This one, I have no idea how to deal with this-clean. Betul tak, when you are close to somebody you takut gila nak advice your friend or tegur mana yang tak betul because yaaa as a fren u shud bekap la yo kawan.

This might be an advantage for myself when I don’t even close yet or belum kamceng giler with this person. I should’ve tegur DIA LIKE EVERYTIME SHES planning to skip solat! And all I ended up sighing alone to the futile reprimands. I  sekali dua pernah tegur like “Solat lah dulu, we are not even sure bila kita mati & kalau dalam tidur nanti mati cemana?” I don’t want to sound so harsh but I think that is still not considered as being harsh! I am being SO DAMN NICE.


“Nanti kalau aku tegur banyak kali, dia ingat aku bajet a…
i cannot write any longer. I am crying so hard now, can't imagine to experiencing it if it were to be one of my family members.
Tapi, Ed tahu Dinie kuat! Sedih tu takpe Dinie. Fitrah manusia ada perasaan. 
Although it takes time.---